if i am really not you, dont give me your smile
if i never being in your heart, dont respect me
if i will never be yours, dont let me love you more than this
i know you know,
i know you realize,
that everything you have done to me is hurting me
everything that you have done is to make me forget you
but, the fact is... i CANT
you always being in my heart, my thoughts
you know that but you refuse
i am sorry to let you know that i have been like you or even in love with you since the first time we met
i cant handle my feeling
i am sorry
i wont disturb you if you want me to
i am so sorry

in my heart

it is just a group of words. i mean, sentences that i want you all to read. i want you all to understand.

it has been so many times i am in a really confusing time. actually not really that confusing, but it seems to.

nobody understand that i need to be alone and i want to be alone. nobody accept my argument. they just can pushed me to do whatever they want me to be or want me to do. i really hate that. i have tried to warn them, but they didn't hear me. they still pushed me. why it can be happened? when i really need time to be alone, just with my friends, they didn't want to understand me.

i know i have mistakes, but that can't make them being like that. just kinda dictator. i am just a little girl who tried to know about me, myself. i just need time to be understood. but, they didn't give it. i am tired.

but, in this situation, i found something. actually someone. who can accept me and understand me.. thank tou so much for you. just don't try to push me. thank you.. i really thankful...