The sun shines, it is brighter than before
Same as me, I felt better than before
It seems like I am in love
Someone gives me life
Someone gives me happiness
Someone gives me respect that I never had before
Guess what!
I am in love with him
He makes my life more colorful and full of happiness
No other sorrow or emptiness that I usually had
He loves me, he gives me his promises also his pure love
How lucky I am!
And start from now on, I had to convince that I am in love
I am in love with him
Thank you God of introducing me to him
To let me knowing him
And, thank you for you…
To love me, to give me happiness, to dismantle my sorrow
Thank you… for being with me.


_i love you, for everything you are_

How do I survive in this world without knowing nothing?
How do I breath with no air?
How do I supposed to be alive in this empty slot?
I am just a little girl
I know nothing
Everything bad turns good in my eyes, never being realize that world is too hard
Many fakes shown up, but I know nothing
This little girl is just want to know bout the world that she is standing for
I expect something but no one give it
Why?
I am just living with no air around, makes me died living in this damn world
I know nothing, and you can’t put the blame on me
Please, somebody tell me something that I supposed to know
Don’t placed me in hell-world
Not in past, future or recent
I am just a little girl, give some ways out
To know, how life’s turning to be …

We have been being together for so many times, in happiness also sorrow
We have shared each other’s problems, also love
But then, all are ruin
It is just because of me, my fault
I make everything become worst, make everything become mistakes
I am so sorry for everything that I have done to you, guys
I didn’t mean to hurt or angry with you all… I am just… I am just doing everything wrong
I am so sorry, I have made all of us not in our condition
I just need time to realize about me, myself and my fault
I am so sorry, my sweet best friends
Even I am not same as usual,
I always love you all guys…
I always do, and it won’t be decrease
I love you all too much
Forgive me…
I will be back as myself, a new me, soon…

With my deepest… Love you all …

I love you beneath my deepest
With my self-possessed I used to convinced
No other words can be done by saying
No explanation for the uncertain answer
No faithful for the untrustworthy person
I am just a liar for my self
A reality that I cant convinced
A memory that always exist, even in past
Not in recent to dismantle you
Maybe some other times can reduce
In some other ways, keep me tough
Realizing the time that come closer, leave me in sorrow
To know that is for real
Reality that convinced me, cant lie
The truth that cant be forgotten
Love you for reality
Love you without any despair
Love you without any sorrow
Love you without any lie
Cause my love is pure, unbreakable, true…

the sun shines above me
the sky looks so bright with not much clouds
many birds sing in this morning, following me to continue my days
i am happy
i am in love
i am on my way
i got through the darkness with all the strength that i have
i fought for myself
i have chosen to be brave
and now, i got the yield
i got my happiness without any sorrow
my days become brighter, my life become more enjoy
and in the other side, i have to convince...
it is because of you... my love
i am in love with you, and it makes me stronger and stronger then i can get back my happy life
thank you for being with me,
thank you for loving me and giving me strength
that i always need...

i love you .... ich liebe dich meine liebste ...

I apology for what I have done to you
I know you won’t understand, but I can’t explain it to you
I just want to say I am sorry
For things that ruins, for what we have been through, for love that we have shared each other
I have to end it, finish it, make it a happy ending story for you
I know how much I have hurt you, how long I have been hiding it from you
But, I am sorry
I can’t be with you anymore, it is because another things come and make me comfortable with it
You always being the best in my life, you have ever being the sweetest, patient, and love able in my life
You have ever being the best that God given to me
But, now I have to leave you
I did it to make you happy with others who can love you with life, soul and everything that she has
Please, forget me and also forgive me for what I have done to you
For being double – minded
For being a cheater

For hurting you
And
For ended our sweet love story

I could go back and rearrange everything turns good
But, why am i running away?
Scared?
Gosh, this silly girl is trying to be a fool
No, not a fool… but a foolish dull lady…
Damn it!
I am afraid of everything, not just in recent but also from past and future
Thinking too much about my future, afraid of the past and give up with the recent
For what anyways?
Being a fool?
Is it good enough for me?
No…
It is something bad that I should have known
But, in reality… I don’t
Silly girl!
Poor me…
Wanted something too much, but in the end… give up without having anything to be tried
Wasting time, huh?
Yes… but don’t worry… I am good enough at listening.
Just yelling at me, say that I am a fool and I will appreciate that
So, give applause for a silly lady who tried to know how is the life turns to be…
But again, for what anyways?

I shouldn’t love him, but however I still do it.
I should have forgotten him, but in fact I can’t
It is the time when I used to realize that he is too much older than me
He is an adult man, but I am just a little girl who still trying to know about me, myself
I am just a little girl who tried to find out what is life meaning for
It is something hard to be learnt
It is too hard for this little girl
He has known everything
He was born eleven years before me, he must have known everything shown in this world
He has his path
And I am still searching for my own path
It can’t be the same. I can’t be with him
Maybe I am just a sister for him
Gosh… it is hard to be explained.
The fact that I have to realize, You have to know-of course you have known- , and he has to convince is… I LOVE HIM
How hard I am trying to hide it inside, I can’t
Someone said that I have to be brave to say it to him
I am trying to be, but…
Still, it is too hard for a little girl like me…
Shit!
I love him…

some weird things come up from my mind
everything shown up, thy show off in front of me
i cant really explain what is that, everything is just spinningaround
that sucks reality facts come behind me, following me
i really want to say that i hate every reality facts
one of that damn reality facts is LOVE
that word which i hate the most
why i have to know about love?
why i have to stuck in it anyways
love makes me cry in sadness, and loneliness
love makes me feel sick and bring me to hell, i mean the sickness that never being healed
love can give me ways, give me lights, give me happiness in the other time
but, sometimes i cant understand how love gives us ways
that is the time when i really hate to love or being loved
why do i have to be anyways?
no one can understand
nor me or any of those old people
thy still learning about it
not just learn, but thy have to know, thy have to feel
when it is getting worst
when it is getting better
when it is never shown
and when it is being never ending story...