broken heart

it is not necessary for me to say i am in love with him
though , i am still doing that in recent
wrong , isnt it ?
no , actually .. but it becomes like that
it used to be a happiness but it comes to be sadness on my hand
why ?
because i insist myself to keep looking for his love
eventhough i know that he won't be mine
but his attitude , his act is just like he gives me some ways
he gives me something that he never gives that to others
that is why i insist myself to be with him
and then , not long after that complicated time
i know that he is not alone
not as i thought
his act to me , his careness to me is just a bull shit
why i said that ?
because the fact tell me that thing
the fact convince me that he is not mine
he wont be mine
i never regret that i have ever like him
but it is just something that i cant expect
i cant fill in
it is just something that hurt me so much
and make me in a really worse time
in a broken heart :(

away from you

I’ve surfed around the world
Passed many times alone
I am on my own footsteps
Away from you …
I’ve searched throughout the world
A lot of things I’ve seen
I’ve learnt about many possibilities
But , why I still being away from you ?
On my own , so far away I lost
On my own , with all the despair
Away from you …
On my own , so far away I roam
For your warm lovin arms
To take me away from pain
And bring me to a wonderland , with you
I don’t want to be
Please don’t let me be
Away from you …

RAIN

rain
it is raining outside
starring at the rain at night
i think it much
somehow rain reflects sorrow
when rain comes there always be a sadness
but then
someone teach me
that rain isnt always reflecting sorrow
but rain also giving us happiness
the joyful , peaceful as it goes
the water that goes down from the sky
it gives earth live
as we never realized
how will our live turn to be without rain
rain
gives us live
gives us feel
gives us joyful
rain
keep make our earth alive
and rain



as your name =)

walking down the street
whispering
looking up the sky
wondering
i am in my own world
i dont need anything else to be conceded
i dont need anyone to be believed
because of you i am living alone in my own world
because of you i cant see anything
because of you i deny the truth
never realized about everything that shown
erased it , forget it
just let it flow and let me be alone
let me passed this with my own sorrow
because the destiny path has being written
not me who asked this for
not me who wanted this be
not me the one
it is you
change my life , make it gone , covered by shadows
i am invincible , though i am a lil girl
you have to know that
that i am invincible because of my self
my own world
then again , i walked alone in my own world with no gravity of reality

little missed sunshine

I found my self today and ran away
Ran away from the truth
Run away from my life
No wonder or hope that might come true
No happiness or joy that might happen
I missed sunshine
Light that always shining
Wind that always blowing
Little missed sunshine
That you I can’t deny
That you I might believe
Little missed sunshine
In my night
You sing me your lullaby
That brings joyful through my life
My night and day
Little missed sunshine
For you my sunshine =)

my lullaby

my lullaby
makes me wonder, makes me hope
my lullaby
my night, my day
I convinced my self that you are mine
Nothing can change
None of those sick truth
I promised my self that you are my one
My lullaby
Warming my night
Gives me the silver lining that have ever lost
My lullaby
You are the truth that I believe
Teach me how to survive
Loving me as I need to be loved
My lullaby
Gives me love, life
Gives me happiness
My lullaby
Always being near me and
Sing me your lullaby =)

empty

In a cold dark empty night

I starred at the sky

Looking up, imagine something shown

Nothing comes out

Tired of waiting

This soul is just dying

These eyes can’t see something

Everything becomes nothing

None of expecting

Dark night following

No silver lining above

Nothing could be shown

Thy just can shouting at me

Thy just can angry with me

Life doesn’t being perfect anymore

No holly, no light, no trusty

All about the fake

All about the shadows

That never gone

Covering all the time

That passed , that rolled

like the beat of heart , until it stops by itself