my confession

Sometimes,i felt lonely
sometimes,i felt lovely
somehow,i think i can forget him
but,i know i can't
somehow,i know how to hate him
but,i know i can't
why do i have to be like this?
I don't even know any of this problems
when i realized that i love him,
i hate myself..
But when i want to forget him
i can't
God, You know how hurt my heart
You know how much i am hurting myself
and You know that i don't want to be like this..
My dearest God,
help me forget it..
Help me through it..
Keep me tough..
I believe,i can do this because of You..