i am tired

All the days that have passed make me realized
When I am being here, worrying about you
Thinking about you,
Missing you,
Waiting for you,
You are not here
You didn’t respect the care that I have given to you
You didn’t care at me at all
Do you still love me?
Or you want to go away from me?
Do you ready enough to let me go?
If I don’t love you, I have gone away from you
I don’t want to be still right beside you
But,
Do you know that I am still being there?
Right beside you?
Do you understand that?
I have tried everything, but all I got is NOTHING
I am tired
I don’t want to try to think about you anymore
Just let our love story being a memory
Go away from my life, let me be alone with all sorrow that you have given
Thank you for everything
I want to be ALONE

i will let you go

I walk alone in the darkness
I feel pain, feel empty
I am searching for something, something that usually being near me
But now, that thing is missing
I don’t know where it goes or where it lost
I keep searching for it, but I found nothing
Then, I realized that what I have been searching for is go away from me
Don’t want to get back to me
So, how hard I am trying to search it, it doesn’t make any change
And I won’t find it
It will always go away from me, where ever I am searching for
I give up
And I won’t search for it anymore
I will let it go far away from me
Let times give ways to another LOVE that will be in my heart
Because,
How hard I am trying to keep it in my heart,
How hard I am trying to search for it,
All I got is just N . O . T . H . I . N . G

every fear in my life shown up
make me afraid and scared
nobody can dismantle it
nobody can reduce it
it is just my matter
it is just my problem
not any of you are into it
nor YOU !
i have to get through it toughly
even in the end i have to fall
because it is mine, not yours
enough of asking me about me
i am too tired of facing this whole damn world that i have to raise
let me go and let me do this...


A.L.O.N.E.

miracle could happened

these days out, many months passed
nothing changed, not new
it is something that i didnt persue
nothing i can do, i run for, i am looking for
but, in the verge of my things
in the edge of myself
miracle comes, make it new, make it better
i am happy, i am in my happiness
nnow i know what i should do
i know what i have been looking for
and i believe that miracle could happened
and miracle could changed

The sun shines, it is brighter than before
Same as me, I felt better than before
It seems like I am in love
Someone gives me life
Someone gives me happiness
Someone gives me respect that I never had before
Guess what!
I am in love with him
He makes my life more colorful and full of happiness
No other sorrow or emptiness that I usually had
He loves me, he gives me his promises also his pure love
How lucky I am!
And start from now on, I had to convince that I am in love
I am in love with him
Thank you God of introducing me to him
To let me knowing him
And, thank you for you…
To love me, to give me happiness, to dismantle my sorrow
Thank you… for being with me.


_i love you, for everything you are_

How do I survive in this world without knowing nothing?
How do I breath with no air?
How do I supposed to be alive in this empty slot?
I am just a little girl
I know nothing
Everything bad turns good in my eyes, never being realize that world is too hard
Many fakes shown up, but I know nothing
This little girl is just want to know bout the world that she is standing for
I expect something but no one give it
Why?
I am just living with no air around, makes me died living in this damn world
I know nothing, and you can’t put the blame on me
Please, somebody tell me something that I supposed to know
Don’t placed me in hell-world
Not in past, future or recent
I am just a little girl, give some ways out
To know, how life’s turning to be …

We have been being together for so many times, in happiness also sorrow
We have shared each other’s problems, also love
But then, all are ruin
It is just because of me, my fault
I make everything become worst, make everything become mistakes
I am so sorry for everything that I have done to you, guys
I didn’t mean to hurt or angry with you all… I am just… I am just doing everything wrong
I am so sorry, I have made all of us not in our condition
I just need time to realize about me, myself and my fault
I am so sorry, my sweet best friends
Even I am not same as usual,
I always love you all guys…
I always do, and it won’t be decrease
I love you all too much
Forgive me…
I will be back as myself, a new me, soon…

With my deepest… Love you all …